don't mind me...

[hippybngstockng]

I'm having a hard time appreciating my life today...

K is in the emotional section of 3-hood now.  Everything that doesn't go exactly his way at the exact moment he was expecting it is cause enough to throw a tantrum of such epic proportions...

So I tried to take him outside so I could hang the laundry in the sun.  He hates putting sunscreen on, so of course he struggled, started crying, and proceeded to get it in his eyes by rubbing them.  This required going back in the house, trying 7 different attempts to get it out which eventually resulted in me crying as hard if not harder than he was because he kept trying to rub them despite my repeatedly telling him that was the thing that made it worse in the first place.  Finally it was resolved and he and I went to our separate corners to calm down (after making a tense peace).  It was bad enough though that I threatened him with never leaving the house while the sun was out if it meant we had to go through that ever again.

Then we ran out of milk.  Insert tantrum here.  I mostly ignored this one since I can't make milk appear and it wasn't technically my fault that there was none, where the eye thing was my responsibility.  I cleaned the vegetable drawer in the fridge instead (since the magical elves won't do it) and stupidly banged my head on the way out, improving my mood tenfold. not.

It went downhill from there.  Now I am the one throwing the tantrums.

On the parenting scale today, I score a negative 6.  I don't know why I ever thought it would be different.  I am way to selfish and immature for this.

Comments

[coldtoast.livejournal.com]

Why fight over the sunscreen?

Either get a kid's spray sunscreen (I strongly suggest Bullfrog brand but don't know if they have it in Canada) or even better, just make him wear a shirt and a hat. Ten minutes in the sun won't kill him.

[rednikki.livejournal.com]

Sweetie - you are having a rough time of it, and have one of the toughest parenting jobs around. You are not a bad mom! I think you should talk to other moms in your situation - I think you'll find you are much better than you feel you are.

[by-sea-change.livejournal.com]

We have that sunscreen battle all the time... At Tommy's age, I can still kind of sneak up on him, but he has a fit on me. I give myself a little time out after one of his tantrums.

I can understand the frustration of bad parenting days. Some days it just plain sucks and makes me question my sanity. It's the most difficult job in the world. Watch, he'll make up for it by doing something extremely sweet. ;)

[missangelyss.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry you're having such a bad day!
This sounds a lot like what it's been like at my house. Our boys seem to be at about the same stage of emotional being. Everything is a crisis around here lately, too.
The part that I hate the most is when we go somewhere and if he isn't ready to leave whereever we have been, he throws the most horrific tantrum getting back into the car. You'd swear I was beating him if you could only hear him. It's complete with "OW! OW! NO! NO! OW!" when I'm not even touching him.

And I am glad to know I'm not the only one who feels too selfish and immature to be a good parent.
Even if you're not feeling it right now, I know I'm not the only one who thinks you are a very good mommy (and an awesome person in general). It's a tough job, that's for sure, particularly with K's issues!
It'll get better... it has to, right? *grin*

[inanna.livejournal.com]

i won't tell you that you are a good mom. No matter what i believe or feel, it is what you believe and feel that matter right now. How do i know? Because on a bi-daily basis i KNOW what a terrible job i am doing and it doesn't matter what anyone else says to cheer me up - i KNOW.

But, you know what... our parents were terrible, too. All parents make mistakes. And sometimes their kids even forgive them. Sometimes it just takes years of therapy and substance abuse recovery.

What i do know is that you are doing the best you can in the moment... even if it isn't the best possible thing, you do the best you can in the moment. And that is all the Gods can ask. Not us, of course, we demand 100% perfection... but the Gods are smarter than we are.

*hug*

[inanna.livejournal.com]

oops, i posted in the wrong place... this was a reply to S. :)

[storychick.livejournal.com]

We had one of those days too. I got bit twice and almost bit another 3 times. This was interspersed with happy happy joy, which made it ultra-odd... I swear sometimes that he's possessed.

I'd have a tantrum after your day too. Wait till the hubby comes home and run away for awhile.

hang in there.